People, I'm denying my mc sexual agency on the basis of patriarchal acculturation.
That is bullshit.
So I take it back.
I'm undoing the doompath of my unlikeable mc in the unreadable wip. I keep vowing not to romanticize Livvie cheating on her nice husband. The idea was she ends up alone and figuring out more of who she is and what she wants. The affair would be a change agent, not a romance. Except despite all my best efforts as a writer, Sebastian fell in love with her and I'm trying to stifle him and have her end up alone because..I judge her choices.
That isn't going to fly in Divaland, people. I figured out what I was doing and how crappy it was so now I'm open to however their relationship unfolds despite any preconceived notions of right/wrong/values.
This has to be about what's true for the story. Not what I live. It's FICTION. I have to, like, accept that and not impose some kind of oppressive shenanigans on my heroine.
She wants what she wants and however broken she may be, she deserves to get it if that's what's organic to the narrative.
I'm sort of proud of her for opposing me. Does that sound deranged, y'all?